I gotta tell ya, this very well may be one of those posts that is far too much information for the general public, but I gotta tell ya, I don't care!!! This is my damn diary, and I will write what I wanna write!

I AM FUCKING HORNY!!!

Now I should follow that up with the point that I haven't had sex since October, and given my previous history 6 months is a VERY long time. I have pretty much not been interested in sex during that time. Everytime I think about hooking up, I think about all the diseases that are running around, and how lucky I am that I am healthy. God got my back once, I shouldn't just toss that aside. Usually when these urges come into my head, I can just turn on some porn and take care of business... at least I know where my hand has been (and I still make it wash with antibacterial soap before it plays with the snake).

But this time is different. Usually, it is just an "oh, it would be nice to fuck around" today is more of a need. And naturally, I am in New York City, luckily we stay way out by the airport, so the chances of me getting any are very slim. I think that is a good thing. I have been doing really good about not having sex with someone I am not dating since the late summer, and I have been really proud of it. But I have also become increasingly aware that the chances of me dating anyone while I am working this hard for the fraternity and flying is very slim, I am just not home enough, who would want to play second fiddle. I know I wouldn't. Maybe once I leave the airline and go back to school dating will be easier (although then I won't be able to afford to take a date anywhere). Maybe I should just stick with fucking... hehehe