Who Knew???

Who knew that Toledo, OH could be a lot of fun!!! I just got back from a weekend visit with a group of men who are working to form a chapter of my fraternity at the University of Toledo. Most people don't understand why I am so devoted to this brotherhood, I gotta tell you, it is weekends like what I just had that keep me doing it. It was kind of like when a teacher tells you the low pay and obnoxious children are completely worth it when you witness one child "get it", when the lightbulb goes off. Same thing here, when I was speaking to these guys about brotherhood and what it means and when I talk about how this fraternity has changed my life, I watched several lightbulbs go off. I even got a little misty eyed when talking to them about it at the end of the weekend. Anyway, I wish them luck with becoming a chapter, I am sure they will make amazing brothers.

There was of course drama with the Matlock situation while I was gone, as I was afraid of. I want to be his friend, and maybe eventually more than that, but I think his ex-boyfriend was right, he needs more time to experience the gay life. He needs to develop his own circle of friends, I am sure that someday he will make someone an excellent boyfriend, but it is certainly not today, and not with me, right now. I haven't talked to him about it, and I only decided it last night after we went to bed. I worry about telling him right before he heads off to his Army Reserve training, but I also don't want to string him along and then have to break up with him right before Christmas when he gets back. I dunno, I will think on it all some more today, who knows, maybe I will change my mind again... *grumble*

Remind me again why people want to date... I know first hand the results are great when they work out in your favor, but if they don't, it all turns to shit. I certainly don't want to be alone for another 2 years, but I sure do hate kissing all the frogs. Oh well, I know it is part of it... so in the meantime... *ribbit*